I’m in an echoing season of quiet. 
My surroundings are silent and my thoughts are deafening.

Will I ever be able to enjoy the stillness?
Will I always be drowned out by the voices inside?
Will there always be a war inside during the outward calm?
How long will this internal chaos last?
Will the peace come when I’m surrounded by unrest?

I try to cancel out the noise with a louder one but it only leaves my ears ringing.

Should I start planting good thoughts now while the season is still dry?
When the rain comes will the water help these seeds to grow?
Will I be blessed with a blooming garden in the Spring?

& when the season of stillness comes again, 
Will I be left with a garden or just the usual desolate place?

‘The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me [rest] in green pastures; He [gently guides] me beside the still waters.’

Psalms 23:1-2

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